back from taiwan, was good! and still wants more of it.
done with all assignments and presentations.
next up, its exams, and next destination PHUKET!

had a good chat with nida, misses as we drifted.
thankful for everyone and everything that came by my life.

people who will always be there for you
people who somehow will be there for you
and some that will not exist in your future and stays in the past.

plans for 2010 is almost all done! this is insane!

i kinda feel the stress from school alr, i kinda of like just completed my Leadership individual assignment. ADBA is definitely different form DBA. and i was pretty much not used to the semestrial basis more of the modular kinda thing. but oh well, everything, is almost coming to an end. and so ADBA has got like group assignment, presentation and individual assignment! and well, its the first time, i had OTS! and work and presentation was needed. i guess somehow is pretty much different. i start to feel to learn a lot more. very soon, my deadlines are all coming up already. so are the exams! afterwhich, a short little break till i start school again in Jan 2010!

my calenders for 2010 are already on the go! with most of the dates filled up!

i've got so much in mind that needs to be done. my room is in a craze mode! i simply cant find the time to even start packing. i guess by CNY, it will still be in the same state, or maybe even worst!

TUITION ASSIGNMENTS, BALLET ASSIGNMENTS, GOING BACK TO DANCING, SCHOOLING, APPOINTMENTS HERE AND THERE...it simply drives me nuts! there is indeed commitments.

these are pretty much updated, life gna be like that as for now, period.
anticipating for taiwan trip! :)
still thinking about the trip to perth, 1k ! sigh...
HK trip w family! seeing my bro!!!! hahaha, maybe! still uncertain though...got school!

was home early, chatted w bro on msn and skpe! mum using those stuff is simply hilarious! and she has facebook! hahaha! the conversation i had w bro was nice, and hilarious! hehe..i simply adore moments like these.

its been 10days ever since i've updated.
this 10days, have passed very quickly with many events happening.

i'm back from KL, trip aint that bad.
fearing for the wrong things, and had a hell loads of yawning and laughing.
aint that sure wht got me so sleepy but i was..
yet still safely back in SIN at 330am.

news i heard str away aint pleasant and shocking.
life could be so fragile.
question asked, why do people have to lose the significant one before knowing their good.
pondered and teared with the sight of my friend at a age of 18 losing her dad.
a dad who pampered her, gave her all that she needed and wanted.
life can be so cruel, yet we never know when it will strike either of us.
knowing the fact, my friend at least had her dad for 18 yrs, some nv had this chance.
condolences reach out to you, dearest charmaine.
my visits to the wake and the cremation, allows my thoughts to run wild.
i couldnt take all this, i'm very afraid, i may just lose my significance ones just like this too.
this, however, eventually will still happen.
i'm afraid, my walls might just break down. and this time, i can never expect how sandra will turn out.

my family members have all left me to BKK, abandoned me in this city.
i missed them, the house is simply too quiet.
watering the plant, taking care of this house have suddenly became my responsibilities.
a part of responsiblity which i nv take part in before.
i feel heavy for my dad who had to carry these heavy big burdens with the extra weight of brother and i.

being thrown like a ball,
i just wna get out of this boring tutoring life.
flipped the newspaper, called, interviewed & worked.
this responsibiltiy is heavy as i nv had a full time.
i've always had flexibility in my work life.
but this dint allow, neither is the pay attractive, Work hrs are just as long.
tell me about it.

plans make w friends, tuitions schedules have all to be switched!
to make time for this pathetic job, but aint that taxing..
its all for that, which talks..and that's money.
school fees! $1K a month! i must really be insane.
hopefully, shell fits my timing! needs another job.
i feel poor again.

poor in everything.
not everything to be exact.
aint counting the blessings again.
 

somehow, i feel pathetic, with the inabilities to grab hold of the friends i want to.
the friends which i tot i was pretty okay with..
i lost the grip..and i guess its going away.
 

tries hard, but aint hard enough..

what exactly am i looking for in life ?
you may think you have seen a lot, knowing wht you're looking for.
but in actual fact, nope, you know nuts.
experiencing and seeing is totally different.
till you experienced it, you see its different.

this life with no aim,
just want to complete the studies.
earn money to pay school fees.
satisfy my travelling anf shopping needs.

this yr passed really quickly,
accomplished much stuffs and experienced the many different things.
i jot it down, pen it down.
in case my memories fail me.
made new friends, still holding on to old friends.

my priorities:
1. family, an important factor i;ve always neglected.
2. friends, <3
3. studies, something i need to complete.
4. work, source of income
5. if for the other half.

life in every ways, should proceed and lead as it is.
this time, i wont wna fall and not get myself up.
dependent, independent, i feel the burden.
the stronger this girl appears to be, please try to protect her even more.
cos she is, afraid, and at any moment just drop without warning.
i wont know when's the next moment i will collapse again.
respect is what i will give to you,
no one should be left alone..


i will walk the same old path!
go through all the same old shit!
hurt enough and learn the right way..
not choose to have a different path without you in it!







thoughts sharing with no excitments of pictures! i'm a boring dude like a noob!